DisApPointEd dAY

dont know why i kept thinking of her???She(xy) didn't sms anything the whole day.Haizzzzz guess she must be well already from her sickness which i hope she will soon.SMSes her at night when i reach home but didn't reply and i can CONFIRM she will be spending her night at a guy's place.Meet he(T),him(Q) to find her.I feel very wasted a gal like her goes the wrong path.I know it very bored to stay at home but why let other guy played u out when u knew about it and willingly let others do it!isn't 1 guy love enough???I keep tell myself that i wMUST not sms or call her but i really scare that something will happen to her.Really tired of doing that liao.I have learn my hard way when i have an easy way out but i choose not to.I really don't wish to see her walk till this step.Its not easy to survive in the world without cert to be frank.I really hope she will chose the easy way than the hard way although the hard way u learn more but not worthy it.Till now i wonder,does she worth my love????YES i can touch my heart to say that but if she change.She never realise her mistake and kept doing it again and again.I reallly hope i can slap her real hard on her face to wake her up but i know i wont do it.PLEASE WAKE UP MY DEAREST DARLING.What i can do now is to wait and wait and wait till the fu*king miserable day come when i meet the ONE hopefully its her.Really sick and tired of carrying a burden and put it down repeatly.SO TIRED.Now i only wants to buy a car thats it.Haha no 1 included her(xy) will see my blog so i can sayy it loud now.MY TP IS ON JAN.hopefully can pass can buy my car something which belong to me and will never betray me.