Sunshine after Rain 18/12/08

went to jurong point to walk walk during work time and spend almost the whole afternoon grabbing a pair of stitch.Have a very strong feeling that darling will like it a lot.so went to catch it without telling her.After gotten the 2 around 4 plus,still have to bring to AMK to ballon wrap it cos have check a few places but could not find a place to do it so no choice but to go down AMK to do it and collect it later.Received a sms from darling that she will be going to jurong point also with shun ping at the same time.And have also a feeling that she will see the pair of stitch.So during night working time still have to find time go Amk to collect and bring down jurong point and to my surprise that when she saw the pair of stitch, shun ping said:"i thought this is the pair u(xy) wanted just now?"Than i know that darling saw it in the first place and like it.Haha clever of me to catch it in the afternoon and give to her in the night.Finally can see the smile that all along i wanted to see again on the face.At the same time darling bought a cigarette box with wind prove for me SO TOUCH as darling is not working and bought me a gift.Really love it a lot.So after that we went to timah for pool session with her(xy) and shun ping to teach them some tips on playing pool.Soon after gal called up and ask if we want to tag along to see him test his car performance at LCK.But ended up in pioneer rd.Fast car he have.

k-Box Day 17/12/08

had k box session with R1(Vicson), houyi, evelyn, shun ping and of course Darling but in the end, ended up a very sad day for me after throwing temper and have to sleep outside house till mom open the door for me cos key with darling.

hApPy WeEkEnd 14/12/08

Met up Ms, Q and of course my darling(Xy) on this raining sunday at 10.by right shpuld be 8.30 lor but due to i need to prepare breakfast for them so in the end met up late.Actually its not raining anymore in the west but while on the way to changi village,it starts to rain again.Upon reaching there we were a bit wet.So we took the ferry to Pulau Ubin and reach there about 11 plus.We sat there for breakfast that i have made for them,and order drinks.And after sitting a while,we decided to rent the bicycle to ride otherwise it will waste our trip on a sunday sitting there drinking and smoking.So we went to rent the bike for each of us and after me and darling collect our bicycle, we rode off but after a while we realise that Q ans Ms did not catch up with us so we waited for them.after a while, we saw ms sitting behind on the bicycle which 2 person can ride.OMG thought she knew how to ride!!!But in the end, Q have to ride sohard when going up slope and ms just sit there and enjoy.but still she did help to cycle when going up high slope.Around 2 plus we finish cycling, we decided to go home and bath and go to bt timah to see monkey but we went to the seaside to catch fish and guess what lich haha.What a good day.Finally in the night when we all have finish bathing and meet up again,we took out all the things we caught and play with it like spreading salt on the lich and so on.A very happy weekend spend with Q,MS and of course DARLING.Some pic attached of the day and things we caught that day.A very wet but very happy day spead at Ubin.Hopefully things can stay on like this for long.And very good place for pic as background.

haPpY but sAD dAy

meet up darling (xy) to go marina sq to get bear bear and reach there around 8 plus 9.and went straight to get bear bear.But spend 45 mins there cannot even see the stupid bear to move closer till spend almost $50 and darling start to feel very sian of it already.I tried to get her to let me spend a bit more but she wont allow and start to show me face liao.Wat have i done wrong????Even i am trying to make her happy cos i can see that its different from the past few time.i can feel that this stitch she really want it cos its really very cute even to me. Sometime i really feel that she really dont feel happy at all going out with me.I guess i am still a bored person after all to her.Sorry to say that but thats the best i can do.i am sure of that cos she going to meet shun ping after i off work and stay there awhile after shun ping didn't appear and off we go for pool game at timah.Really had a gd time till she says that i am not a humble and not gentleman enough.Really turn me off.Am i really someone like this???After that fetch her to meet her friends at yew tee and she told me very firmly that she wont stay with them for long but in the end,........'i'm staying with them'.Haizzzzz maybe i am someone she really dont wan to spend time with.She once ask me why dont u have confidance in myself.Here is the answer, how to have confidance when no one gives me any confidance in me at all.Finally i understand the only person NOT NEEDED is ME.I am just like a puppy who is being showcase inside the cage with other puppies and can only sit there and see many people coming in to buy other puppie except me.Can someone feel the heart pain that i have????Didn't i give anyone the feeling that i need love more than them???Ya guess she prefer to stay with him(B) and he(T) rather than me ba.HAHA.Sometime i can't stop myself from laughing at myself how stupid and idiotic i am when i know that no matter how much i give,i can NEVER replace them from her heart ba.Will i just hope that someone who loves her to take gd care of her.Maybe i should wait for either him(B) or he(T) to be back and i can just let her go.I just wish to see her smile as i really feel its soooooo sweet to me.SOmetime i really hope she can be like MS on how well she treat q.Really envy him and a bit of jealous.Why can MS treat Q so gd but i can even feel that she like me even a single bit.Well, guess i might be trying to force something out but like wat in chinese love can only me encounter and not going after ba.Somethings in life,if its yours its yours.Otherwise no matter what and how much u do,if its not yours, i will never be yours.Really feel that somethimes that word are fighting with each other, like 'if its yours, its yours'.But what about 'persistant is wat u need to make things come through'.really some how cannot understand ba.Can someone teach me what should i do.Anyway this is the stitch that she really likes a lot.

Never wait for thing to ahppen.

Never wait for things to happen she(xy) once said.for me......make thing happen.When the first day u start to cherish yourself,i will be the first to cherish u AGAIN Darling.

DisApPointEd dAY

dont know why i kept thinking of her???She(xy) didn't sms anything the whole day.Haizzzzz guess she must be well already from her sickness which i hope she will soon.SMSes her at night when i reach home but didn't reply and i can CONFIRM she will be spending her night at a guy's place.Meet he(T),him(Q) to find her.I feel very wasted a gal like her goes the wrong path.I know it very bored to stay at home but why let other guy played u out when u knew about it and willingly let others do it!isn't 1 guy love enough???I keep tell myself that i wMUST not sms or call her but i really scare that something will happen to her.Really tired of doing that liao.I have learn my hard way when i have an easy way out but i choose not to.I really don't wish to see her walk till this step.Its not easy to survive in the world without cert to be frank.I really hope she will chose the easy way than the hard way although the hard way u learn more but not worthy it.Till now i wonder,does she worth my love????YES i can touch my heart to say that but if she change.She never realise her mistake and kept doing it again and again.I reallly hope i can slap her real hard on her face to wake her up but i know i wont do it.PLEASE WAKE UP MY DEAREST DARLING.What i can do now is to wait and wait and wait till the fu*king miserable day come when i meet the ONE hopefully its her.Really sick and tired of carrying a burden and put it down repeatly.SO TIRED.Now i only wants to buy a car thats it.Haha no 1 included her(xy) will see my blog so i can sayy it loud now.MY TP IS ON JAN.hopefully can pass can buy my car something which belong to me and will never betray me.