A Sad Day

had a very hard to sleep night.actually didn't wan to continue with this blog anymore but she(sx) ask me to continue with it,really cant find a way to let out my sadness.ever since heaven drop me a gal that whom i didn't wan to go after in the first place,i feel very happy and sad.even though i feel very hard to let go this "abnormal" relationship but i really can't understand why she(XY) have to do all this things to hurt me.Yesterday, i took a no pay leave wanted to accompany her out as i knew she will be bored but after going to causeway for shopping and on our way back to her home she got 2 missed call and 1 sms.Iask who sms her,she told me its him(JB).And i ask her what he sms,to my surprise,she said i dont want to let u see cos u will get angry.I walk her home and said that i wanted to go home for a rest.After i reach home she told me that she was unable to accompany me as her friend birthday is today.I guess she will be meeting him(JB) today.We have a small argument over this matter but alright after that.But i realise that actually she went to his(JB) house to spend a night the day before which i have guess so that day.why will she need to do all this all the time.I knew she was showing me attitude this few days but i don't mind,i even went marina sq to pick up the sitch for her as i know she wants it very much.Am i not good enough for her?Even though she knew all along this guy is playing her,and she is willing to go up to his house.Just because he(JB) is able to accompany her for a drink in the pub????many QNS have come into my mind.Today i took an mc again.The 4th day mc this month.Is it because of her???I guess its time to let her go.Maybe she is still playful but i guess its too silly to be played by a guy who can't give her a good future.Can he give her happiness???Till now i still wonder.I am really very tired to think and to argue anymore as she(xy) promise not to go to any guys house alone but she still did.Did i not able to give her happiness compare to him???